So I have taken so long to reply. thanks for sharing
I agree with you that when you create something and let it out, as it were, it is like releasing part of your self. I always experience a certain expectation that it will either be liked or understood. I remember finding critical apprasials at college very difficult as I oftern was not ready to let others see my images - they were either unfinished or I had not had enough private time with them. Some of the people that I studied with just would not get what I was trying to achieve - it was like banging your head against a brick wall most of the time and I oftern left the apprasal feeling more confused that I was on entering.
One of the things that I have been reading about with regard to art therapy is that some patients find this a difficult part of the theraputic process, that releasing the images to the therapist is hard and then to talk openly about there experience when creating the image and now that it is finished is challenging within its self.
Maybe we all as artists, are using our creations as part of a self therapy, almost like a self healing for past or present event. I certainly agree that when creating something dark my mood completely changes until the image is complete. I have recently been trying to create this emotional reaction round the other way. To gather my reaction or emotion towards a certain subject and then let all the emotion out onto either canvas or with photography. I realise that I have been doing this subcontiously for years but it is quite challenging to be totally aware of this process.
Clare